Dreamer and Starting Over

I had a dream last night. I don't get dreams often but when I do they are often rather morbid (usually something involving death :/ ) but this was something else entirely.
In this dream my life was hectic, things were falling apart all around me. People I thought were my friends stabbed me in the back; university was not going well; family was falling apart and to top it all off, I was sick! 
Now this part of the dream, I will admit closely reflects how my life is going now; it is difficult for me to admit, but its the truth. 
But, the next part is what makes this dream so special for me. Just when I'm about to give up with all the crap around me, a guy comes up to me and hugs me. Now in my dream I know this guy and he's a good and reliable friend. He's tall and stoic and just by judging by his looks, you would assume that he would be quite scary, but once you know him a bit you realize how that is not the case at all. 
At first the hug is a quick hello hug and we quickly break apart but throughout the dream he keeps hugging me and every time we are about to break apart, I am reluctant to, so we keep hugging. 
Then my bloody alarm clock goes off! I quickly switch it off and try to doze off again, in hopes of my dream continuing. Alas is doesn't.
I'm so upset that my dream doesn't continue but at the same time I'm so happy that I had it at all.
The idea of a guy hugging me is an alien thought to me, it has never happened to me. Super embarrassing to admit but whatever, the fact is, it hasn't. The dream made me realize how nice it would be to be held by someone; someone who cares for me
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Okay so its been a day since I wrote this and I am CRINGING! Wow was I emotional or what?! But I suppose I stand by what I said. It would be nice but now that I have some clarity, I am not going to depend my happiness on a guy, do not worry!
But it would be nice to feel that I'm not totally alone during a difficult time in my life.
So I have decided to blog away my troubles, well at least document my journey. I'm doing this for a few reasons: 1) Even if no-one reads this blog at least I can feel like I am reaching out to somebody and maybe somebody would care enough to read it 2) I have a tendency to hide away and collapse into myself when I am stressed or when things go wrong; if I blog, I am putting myself out there and would be much harder for me to give up.

This dreamer is on a journey to get her life back! Wish me luck

Dannie x